Well, nothing ever seems to go right for us does it? Here I am again, drunk out of my mind, my head laying on the bar counter, and an empty bottle in my hand. For so many nights I’ve tried shutting out your voice from my head. The drink always worked. Tonight though, something’s different. It’s quiet. Not a single sound from you. I guess you got tired of trying to save me from beyond the veil. That’s okay. I guess I never really wanted to be saved. Not after losing you.
So here I am, seeking you out in my head. The only place where you still reside. Or at least I hope you still do. I think I’m doing this because I need your forgiveness. I never did right by you after what happened. I was a coward, truly. I know that now. However I can’t take back what I did with that cowardice, and anger, and self-hate that I cultivated.
I tried to keep my promise to you. I really tried. I failed though. I admit it now. I – hold up, I need to go to the bathroom.
That was rough. Almost got into a fight with that guy I bumped into. Man, I must be really wasted. I’m staggering all over the place. Where was I? Ah yes, seeking my redemption from you, before my requiem… if at all I’ll ever get a requiem. Damnit! Where did I put my car keys? Oh, there they are. I shouldn’t be driving right now, but I need to get there.
Finally made it, I’m lucky I didn’t run into any cop, or person. Streets are mostly empty tonight. Guess even the universe agrees I need to do this.
Remember this place, hun? It’s where we shared our first kiss. Look at the stars, my love. Wait, are you one of them? I remember your tales about our spirits going into the universe. I miss those tales. Another tale would be great though as we watch the stars reflected on the lake surface in front of us.
It’s getting cold, but that has never been a problem for me. It won’t ever have a chance to after tonight.
I can hear the engine give out. Lucky thing gets to go before I do. It’s slow. My legs are getting wet. Seems the water is rising at a slow pace. I hear it rush and bubble up fast as it seeps in through the various openings.
So peaceful. I can’t stop thinking about your smile. The smile that warmed up my cold heart whenever I saw it. I can’t see the sky anymore. The water’s up to my neck now. No. I won’t leave. I’m coming to you. Please stop screaming at me. I failed in keeping your promise. At least accept me back.
I can see you, once more! My God, you are as beautiful as the day we met. I’ll be with you soon my love. Real soon…..